too hard on myself…my late night eating progression.

by Danica on October 18, 2012

I still haven’t heard from the winner of the Coconut Oil Giveaway–if I don’t hear from her by tonight (8p.m. central time on October 18th), I’ll choose a new winner!

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I recently had a rough night.

I was about to head to bed, but before doing so I was in the kitchen packing up lunch/food to bring to work the next day.

I wasn’t hungry in the slightest, but I ate 2 cookies that I had made earlier that evening.  And then I immediately felt guilty about it.

I kept beating myself up about it–why would I eat 2 cookies if I wasn’t even hungry?  I’d already eaten 1 plus some of the dough earlier that night!

I was laying in bed thinking about all of this, and some perspective came out of nowhere that slapped me right in the face.

4 years ago I was a freshman in college, and it wasn’t unusual in the slightest for me to eat an entire small-size pizza from Domino’s, topped with pepperoni slices and tons of cheese with a hand-tossed-style crust.

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That’s a total of 2,420 calories (1,100 from {unhealthy} fats), 3 grams of trans fat (holy. crap.), and 4,310 grams of sodium.

It makes me nauseous thinking back on that.  So gross!  But that wasn’t uncommon for me then!

2 years ago I was a junior in college, Jesse and I had just started living together in our first apartment, and it wasn’t uncommon for me to eat 1/3 of a pan of “homemade” boxed brownies for dessert on a summer night, topped with peanut butter or fruit too, of course…

I don’t even want to look at the ingredients in one of those box mixes.

Again–not uncommon.  Yuck.

2 weeks ago, as a 22-year-old newlywed whose been on this healthy-living journey for nearly 2 years now, I had 2 homemade vegan pumpkin oatmeal chocolate chip cookies.

When I look at it that way…

I’m come so far it’s just almost overwhelming.

As soon as I made this realization, I snapped out of my guilty feeling and actually felt really proud of myself.

Am I exactly where I want to be yet with healthy food choices?  No.  I still don’t think eating 2 cookies right before bed, especially when I’m not even hungry is a good choice.

But have I made some serious progress over the past few years?  YES, I have.  And that’s absolutely nothing to feel guilty about.

{ 6 comments… read them below or add one }

1 Amanda @ Eat More Rabbit Food October 18, 2012 at 9:32 am

Great perspective!

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2 Danica October 18, 2012 at 4:54 pm

thanks Amanda :)

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3 Mark Buss October 18, 2012 at 10:20 am

Very cool and remember you do not need to be perfect, enjoy your treats!

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4 Jesse October 18, 2012 at 12:58 pm

This post is very fitting for the name of your blog!

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5 Emily @ Perfection Isn't Happy October 18, 2012 at 10:31 pm

I love your new blog layout!

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6 JEN October 20, 2012 at 12:22 pm

LOVE LOVE THE NEW LOOK!! :) GREAT JOB!!

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