I’m getting married in just over 7 weeks…
I’m going to be completely honest and admit something to you–the pressure of what I’m supposed to be, do, and particularly look like as a bride is starting to make me frustrated on too many days.
As if there’s not enough pressure about looks from this society already, the pressure about “the big day” is immensely difficult to deal with at times.
According to society, I should be super skinny with toned muscles, large boobs, have a glowing tan, bright white teeth, the perfectly clear complexion, shiny hair, manicured nails, etc. etc. etc.
The pressure is getting so intense that some women (any too many) have resorted to this absolutely disgusting diet fad:
Paying $1500 to ingest only 800 calories a day from a tube placed through the nose that runs into the stomach for the couple of weeks leading up to the wedding.
When I first read about this procedure, I truly felt nauseous and sick over it. I just can’t believe anyone would ever think this was even a remotely good idea. It’s insanely dangerous and stupid. BUT, remember what I just said earlier, about all of that pressure? A very small, teeny tiny part of my brains sees what maybe drove these women to such extreme measures. I mean, sure, it’s a quick way to lose weight and shrink down a little! But still completely gross, a little disturbing, and never a justifiable decision…
I, on the other hand, am taking this approach to my wedding day to heart: eating clean, exercising regularly and smartly, and focusing on not losing myself.
On my wedding day, I still want to look like myself. I don’t want to look back on my wedding pictures a year or two from now and hardly be able to identify myself. I want to look good and feel beautiful, but there’s just no point in risking my health for a few pictures. J loves me just the way I am, and the sooner I accept that the more beautiful I know I’ll be.
*Remember when I talked about counting calories? I did that for several months, but now I’ve decided to quit counting calories. I can’t say that I’ll stop forever because for a while I truly think it was good for me, but it started to take up so much of my time. I started to eat because I “needed calories” rather than because I was hungry (not okay) or I would want something to snack on but wouldn’t because I had already met my calorie count for the day according to the program (again, not okay). I’m focusing on listening to what my body wants, going with my cravings, and paying close attention to how I feel.